I voted for Trump in 2016 and I was ashamed. Here’s what I’m doing differently in 2020.

4 years ago seems like a lifetime, honestly. I had 4 kids instead of 6. We were still renters. I was still juggling part time work on someone else’s schedule, trying to make everything fit. The run up to the 2016 election season felt insane, but now that we’re all snuggling in to the waning hours of 2020, the year from actual hell, I think I can safely say 2016 was a bit like a contentious student council run off, yes?

I knew I couldn’t vote for Hillary Clinton, not for all the money in the world, all the penguins in the zoo, all the coffee in the southern hemisphere, etc etc etc. So I held my nose, averted my eyes, and stealthily, guiltily, shamefacedly cast my vote for Trump.

Was I embarrassed? You betcha. Too embarrassed to put so much as a thumbs up on social media, so chastened was I by the mere fact that I was selling out my very soul, according to the court of public opinion, by voting for this clown of a man, this caricature of an actual human being.

Nevermind the fact that Hillary Clinton was – is – demonstrably one of the more (most?) corrupt politicians in recent American history. Never mind that her stance on every issue under the sun was about as far left as the Golden Gate bridge, never mind that her husband was an actual sexual predator who carried on his philanderings in the actual White House, I was expected to – nay, commanded to – throw my support behind Clinton based largely upon her proud possession of a uterus. Because feminism!

Besides, Trump was, according to the media, the political peanut gallery, and multitudes of people of faith, both on and offline, a bonafide monster. A p*ssy grabber. A misogynist cad with a bad hairpiece a third marriage (probably just for show) and a brash and “uncharitable” way of speaking his mind.

If I were a good Christian, a good person, the rhetoric insisted, I’d have refrained from sullying my conscience and simply abstained from the vote entirely.

But, here’s the thing. As I looked around at the political frenzy that surrounded 2016 and the increasingly hysterical rhetoric surrounding the candidacy of Donald Trump, as I watched the media hyperventilate as he dominated the Republican debates, rising about a tepid and wilting crowd of career politicians, I couldn’t help but notice that the same media who fundamentally opposed almost everything I stood for, from the sanctity of human life to the dignity and sacramental nature of marriage to the blunt reality that men have penises and women have vaginas, well, these people really, really did not want Donald Trump to get elected.

So much so that, it turns out, either every single one of them spectacularly misread the polls, or else they willfully ignored, suppressed, or manipulated the data that would have made election night 2016 less of a bombshell.

I was stunned. I think the entire world was stunned. How could the media have gotten it so wrong? How could it be that there were enough deplorable, hate-filled, ignorant, bible-clutching, gun-toting morons in these great United States of America capable of handing Trump one of the biggest upsets in modern politics?

As the reality of what had transpired sank in, and heads exploded across airwaves and social media platforms the world over, I reflected on the disparity between what I’d been shown in the news coverage and what had actually transpired.

And I realized something.

I realized, perhaps shamefully late in life, but I got there, nonetheless…I realized that the media itself, every inch of it, had – has – an agenda. And that agenda? It trumps (no pun intended) absolutely everything else.

And we had just witnessed perhaps the greatest rebuke to that agenda of all time.

The American people were supposed to reject Trump resoundingly. Because the moral elite, fatally impaired in most of the actual virtues but prodigies in the art of virtue signaling, insisted that we do so, because Trump was yucky.

As this realization sunk in over the first year of Trump’s presidency, while I was still holding my nose and watching with skepticism as he began to govern, I found myself increasingly clicking over to Cspan or the Whitehouse.gov YouTube channel, sort of checking in to contrast the mainstream media coverage with what had actually transpired. I wanted to see if he really was the dictatorial monster Anderson Cooper and AOC make him out to be.

So I watched, and I listened.

I watched him address the March for Life, streaming the coverage from EWTN because it wasn’t on a single other channel. I listened to his live streamed speech before three quarters of a million marchers gathered on the national mall, not fully understanding how a sitting president of the United States of America could get away with the following statement:

As you all know, Roe vs. Wade has resulted in some of the most permissive abortion laws anywhere in the world.  For example, in the United States, it’s one of only seven countries to allow elective late-term abortions, along with China, North Korea, and others.

Right now, in a number of states, the laws allow a baby to be born [torn] from his or her mother’s womb in the ninth month. It is wrong; it has to change.

Americans are more and more pro-life.  You see that all the time.  In fact, only 12 percent of Americans support abortion on demand at any time.

Under my administration, we will always defend the very first right in the Declaration of Independence, and that is the right to life.


What had I just heard? I shook my head in disbelief, logging in to Twitter expecting to find Catholics and other Christians cheering in solidarity. Instead I found snarky, sarcastic criticism about how if he were “truly pro life” he would change his stance on immigration, parental leave policies, access to contraception, etc etc etc.

About a year later as the immigration crisis began to rise to a critical level, as the media coverage indicated, pictures started circulating of immigrant children detained at the US border in cages. Trump, the monster, according to most news reports, was personally responsible. Oddly enough, some of the earliest circulating photos accompanying the media coverage of this objectively disturbing situation dated back to … 2014, during the Obama Administration, attributed to a Congressman’s website where he details a visit to the border and his satisfaction at finding the immediate needs of migrant men, women and children so diligently met by US agencies and various coordinating charitable organizations.


Then and there I adopted a new habit: to dig into the dull, densely worded and not-at-all headline-shaping transcripts from CSpan, NPR, whitehouse.gov and other duller than dirt government sources on Twitter and the like so that I could read through Trump’s judicial appointments, policy decisions, and executive orders myself, needing to know for sure that I was getting the truth.

This is what I found.

  • Thus far, Trump has installed two (soon to be three, most likely) Supreme Court justices and 205  judges overall to the federal bench — all for lifetime appointments. (Even if Trump is not reelected in 2020, his presidency will continue to have an impact on the direction of the US due to the sheer number of conservative federal judges he’s installed.
  • Three years into his presidency, Trump’s signature legislative achievement remains a Republican tax bill that made sweeping changes to the tax code — the Tax Cuts and Jobs Act. The law was the biggest overhaul to the nation’s tax code in three decades, permanently slashing the corporate tax rate to 21% from 35% while also providing temporary benefits for individuals and their families.
  • Trump signed the First Step Act into law in December 2018, marking the first legislative victory in years for advocates seeking to reform the criminal justice system. The bill also aims to lower recidivism by offering more rehabilitation and job-training opportunities, and it includes provisions intended to treat prisoners humanely — banning the shackling of pregnant inmates, halting the use of solitary confinement for most juvenile inmates, and mandating that prisoners be placed in facilities within 500 miles from their families.
  • After a five-year effort led by the US, ISIS’s caliphate was finally defeated in March 2019 when a US raid led to the death of ISIS leader Abu Bakr al-Baghdadi, the world’s most wanted terrorist up to that point.
  • Trump finalized the Protect Life Rule, cutting Planned Parenthood’s federal funding by $60 million.
  • He reinstated the Mexico City Policy that ends federal funding of overseas abortions. The Protecting Life in Global Health Assistance program safeguards more than $8.8 BILLION in overseas aid from being used for abortions.
  • Signed a bill that allowed states to defund Planned Parenthood of Title X (family planning) funding, reversing an Obama attempt to force states to fund abortion providers.
  • Defunded the United Nations Population Fund (UNFPA) which supported China’s population control program (which includes forced abortions).
  • Issued new guidance ensuring hospitals provide medical care to infants who survive abortions.
  •  Cut HHS funding for fetal tissue research…

So, um, should I go on?

While we’re being browbeaten by an amoral, scratch that, immoral media, powered largely by Hollywood and celebrity outrage culture for voting for a man who is just a hairsbreadth above satan himself when it comes to moral character, according to Lady Gaga and Nancy Pelosi and even my very kind neighbor lady, he’s over there in DC like, signing bills that lower taxes, facilitate prison reform, and protect unborn human life.

I don’t know about you, but I am sick to death of being moralized and preached to by a corrupt, spineless, and utterly compromised media who literally say the opposite of what is true.

I’ve seen Catholics in recent weeks make the case that Joe Biden – Joe Biden! Who has been in his basement for the past 4 months and can’t form a cogent sentence! – is the only morally sound choice this year.

Joe Biden, a lapsed Catholic who shows no sign of having repented from serving in the most corrupt and anti life political administration in history. Joe Biden whose credible (look this word up, it will become increasingly important especially as the impending SCOTUS nominee starts having their lives nuked in the coming days) accusations of sexual assault were ignored, downplayed, or outright accepted by the media and his political allies because even though he may have actually raped that one woman, he is still a better overall choice for all women (?????) than is the sitting President.

Joe Biden, who has aligned himself with a vice presidential candidate who is literally a socialist and a virulent anti Catholic, to boot.

But at least he’s not Trump, right?

I know lots of people are disgusted by Trump’s past, by the sleaze, the divorces, the degrading comments towards women. But is he still there? And most importantly, does it inform the way he governs?

I don’t want to make excuses for immorality, for corruption, for sin. And I won’t. But if someone has changed? If someone lives a corrupt life and turns away from it? Even if not in a public act of repentance, if in word and deed (read: what someone says and what someone does) someone amends their life, does this make a difference?

This is important. It is fundamental-to-Christianity level important. Is he still pro “choice”? Is he passing laws that undermine the family and the sanctity of human life? Is he raping women in the White House? Is he molesting children? Is he embezzling from government coffers, spending taxpayer dollars on entertainment? Abusing the power of the US military?

What is he doing now, today, that merits his title as Monster in Chief, bestowed on him by the illustrious court of public opinion and presided over by the Honorable Judge Hollywood?

Because it matters. Tremendously. Do the research. Figure the answer to this one out for yourself. You owe it to your country, to your family, and to the rest of the free world. Don’t let the media – and that includes social media, maybe even more so depending on your demographic – do your thinking for you.

Don’t settle for anything less than reality.

Just because something isn’t popular doesn’t mean it isn’t true.

In fact, in the year 2020, it may well be that if something is popular, you should take a long, hard second look at it, and figure it out for yourself.

“Is it true?”

Truth matters. Reality matters. Results matter.

Trump 2020. I’m not ashamed anymore.

(P.s. Comments are closed, because I’m also not stupid anymore. Happy election season!)

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